:: w.h.o :: Kaji :: a.b.o.u.t :: | female | open minded | up to challenges | interested in sex | people's fantasies | curious| lives in the most boring place - England :: b.l.o.g :: | observations of sex life of 20 year old female | girls can have fun as well | non-committment sex is not a guy thing |
Oh yes, Sweden did not turn out to be as bad as it sounded like it. Quite fun actually. Got my eyebrow pierced, as well as the piercing in the "sweet spot". Haha. Must say, it kind of hurts. But at the same time, hell, it's worth it!
Honestly thought I had a sign that says "I like girls and guys. I like sex." Or maybe the swedish people are sex-deprived. Who knows? But the point is, I don't think I've had so much sex as I had in the past few weeks. And it was ridiculously fun. Swedish guys are really into the whole bondage idea. Which I might say, not bad at all. Never thought I'd like the submissive part. But hell, anything to try at least once! Ooh, and Dominik..My, my .. he is surprising me more and more. I do believe we've moved out of the awkward phase and are a couple now. With some guest appearances. Haha.
Don't think it was really smart of me to take off that time of studying, but what the hell, we didn't do much. In any case, Janey has filled me up on the missed time. And more. Mm .. girls cum. Yum. Haha. And the piercing proved to have its worth!
Swedish people do have preference for toys. Especially at my friend's house, the guy had a whole collection of dildos. I did not think that kind of variety was available!
Also didn't think that many could fit into me. Or rather, that much.
Swedish girls are too uptight though. But do like getting fingered and eaten out by a girl. But fuck, they never return the favor! Well, unfortunately for them, their boyfriends like to fuck, finger and eat out other foreign girls. So, ha on them.
Family going crazy, my friends not helping with their constant whining, Dominik not being there.
I need to make my life easier. Uni is annoying the hell out of me! Who knew English Literature would be so time consuming? I think I'm dropping that course. Really, there is no need for it. I only took it for the hell of it, and because it was suppose to be an easy class. Well, back to psychology I go.
Fuck me, why didn't I just take art?
Oh right, "it's not a serious job!". "I'm not paying for you to waste your time!".
And then, they wonder why I force myself to come to the family dinners!
My family is a load of fucknuts, who cannot do anything for themselves. It's like I live in a circus, that never goes away. Perhaps that would explain my dislike towards the circus!
Had an "deep" conversation with Justin. Yeah, haven't heard from him in a week.
I need to learn how to keep my mouth shut. Why is it that difficult for me? It wouldn't kill me for once to think before I say something out loud, would it? Well, I suppose one less problem in my life then. Heh.
I think I'm anti-social. Or at least people-phobic. Or rather, well I am not scared of people, I just hate them. So what would you call that?
Life should get better this weekend. But then, I'm going to Sweden, how much fun would that be?
A realisation was made today. Or rather two. Or three. Well a couple!
First of all, my family has gone bonkers! I mean it! My dear mum is obviously going through a middle-life crisis. Only about 10 years too late! She is all of a sudden is interested in younger men.
You might think "Oh well, nothing is wrong with that!"
News flash - everything is wrong with that! The major wrong part is the fact that my dad is usually right there, when she starts "flirting"! And flirting is a term I use loosely, as my dear mum doesn't flirt like normal people. Her flirting consists of asking people - men in general - if they would like to fuck her senseless!
My brother is going insane as well. I swear, his wife is putting crack in his food. There is absolutely no explanation to his 1 am calls, saying "I hate my house. Get me out of here!" Oh yes, and he is 5 years older than me!
My dad has also joined the looney circus! He is planning to move to Australia! He "likes the weather"!
No, I do not have anything against my crazy family moving half of the world away. But first, they have to either leave me the fortune to spend, or finish at least paying for my tuition!
Just read a little something on Smoking Life. Oh yes, I do enjoy reading that site. So bite me! Anyways, he mentioned something about the awkward silence.
Well quite honestly, awkward silences can be used for many things.
1. It is a relief. If you are dealing with a girl, or sometimes a very talkative guy, that awkward silence is like a breathe of fresh air. You are able to breathe in and prepare for the continuation of the talk. If you are lucky, they might figure out that you aren't interested in whatever the bloody hell they are ranting about and shut up. If you aren't so lucky, well .. I just feel sorry for you mate!
2. An opportunity. For as I've said before fresh air, but also an opportunity to take the matter in your own hand. Depending on the situation, this opportunity should be used quite intelligently. For example, if it is during sex, you shut the person up. It can vary in the execution part, but essentially what you do is show the person that you do not care, but want to continue the one activity that the both ( hopefully! ) of you enjoy.
3. Awkward silences, as he stated, are funny. They always turn out to be something hilarious. And if you are lucky, the person who created the silence, just digs themselves a grave. Again, do not pass on this opportunity! Make the most out of it! Don't know how it is over in the good ol' America, but here, you just do not pass something as precious as this Freudian slip.
I think there is hope for me to pass my English Literature class. Please do not ask why on this bloody earth I took that course, but it was rather entertaining. Now, I might pass it. All thanks to Michaila. Because of being caught um .. having fun with me, by our prof in the room under his desk, I think I have a shot at passing. I'm sure that was the most action he has ever seen. Oh the uses of sex!
Huh. Still nobody here. But found a good blog on blogdrive. Smoking Life. Amazing. Need more guys like him in England. Honestly. Here people are just not adventurous at all! You want to have sex outside, they think you are weird.
Speaking of sex, snow is fun. No, I do not mean the snowball fights fun, although that is undeniable! But using it for special purposes just adds that extra zinc! Whatever the bloody hell that is.
Dominik turned out to have an adventurous side to him after all. We went out for our casual date. It was rather fun because we ended up going to a game. Do not remember who was playing as we were both indulged into heavy flirting and making fun of the players. Something tells me it must've been a Manchester City game. Oh well. Then we went for a walk. And by a walk I mean just plain walking, without a destination, or time management. We ended up at a very deserted neighborhood and a very comfortable-looking bus stop. More flirting which turned into making out. It was really sweet and nice. No heavy stuff. Just really playful and innocent. He knew what he was doing and so was I. Soon enough I could feel the tingling wetness between my legs and I could feel his dick becoming harder and harder. I whispered in his ear, asking if he would ever do it outside in public, and risking to be getting caught.
He said yes!
I was surprised and happy. So quickly certain items of clothing came off and away we went. It started out quite slow and gentle. Slowly becoming harder and faster. He kept biting my neck which was pleasing. We were quite exposed to the cold. My butt cheeks were numb though, but I guess that was the sacrafice which needed to happen on my part, as I was incredibly happy afterwards. So, surprise, surprise, Dominik just might be adventurous. I know he is weird, but hey, this is the good weird!
Looking forward for new experiences.
Interestingly enough, he just called. So off I go.
Oh my, I do not have any time anymore. Too busy. But doesn't look like anybody is missing me here. Should make friends? Perhaps, perhaps. Some free time. I'm working now as well. Basic info about me isn't clear, which is how I want it to be. But I'm in uni at the moment and quite frankly, I do need to support myself. My parents pay but they are complete arse-holes who do not care about anything but themselves.
I'm confused. Strangly enough. I have relationships problems. But I guess that is what you get from having too many companions in your life. I still cannot choose who I like better. Love? Oh no, I'm far from that. But at least like, I should narrow it down.
Let's see, there is Jenn. My friend, whom I've known for about 2 years. Hot as hell, needless to say things happened between us. We still go out on regular basis, but she is turning out to be full les and me ... well I'm just bi. I think I'm going to stick to that for now.
As to why I prefer to be bi, rather than full lesbian? Well quite simply, I like guys. I find them to be more enjoyable. And also, meaningless relationships to them, is normal. Hence, I do not have to go through all the trouble explaining as to why I just want to fuck them on regular basis and spend fun time together and NOT resulting in any future plans. Yes, that ability which guys pocess and most female population in this world hates - has its advantages!
Now as for other people confusing me - there is Michaila. Another girlfriend. An friend of my ex. She just makes my life confusing as bloody hell. Never a definite answer, yet always wanting a "relationship". What's wrong with hot meaningless sex? We both know, that she is going to grow out of this phase and move on to marry some young doctor her parents chose for her. So why make such a big deal of out this? Join the club! I also do not know.
Now those are the girl problem. But oh yes, I have guys as well. Three in fact. But one doesn't count as he purely is just a back up plan if you want to call it. He is the type of the person that will always be there for me, no matter what. And I will be there for him, no matter what as well. I've known him for a long time. We've dated. Things didn't work out for the best. But we still enjoyed spending time together. And yes, by that I mean, we enjoyed getting together, teasing each other to the point where the both of us wanted it more than anything, resulting in the obvious - sex. I do believe, he is one of the most creative people I know in bed. But that is another story.
Now there are two more. One's name is Dominik. He is what you'd call my boyfriend. Yet he isn't. We are just in that akward stage where we are definately more than friends, but cannot decide as to move on or not. I do believe I might have strong feelings for him though.
And there is my other choice who goes by the name of Justin. Just something about him, makes me want to never leave him. He is absolutely adorable and funny. But doesn't want anything serious. Just the good times. So do I, yet ...
Enough of this. Nobody is here to read this anyways. Personal amusement I suppose this will be. In any case, I found something interesting not too long ago. My name means "fire" in Japanese. Got to ask my mum if she got together with any Japanese person in her prime.
Perhaps girls are not so bad. I like the feeling of a moist pointy tongue in me. Twisting, turning, driving me to the brink of insanity with pleasure. I like the small, inexperiences, but eager kisses on my nipples. I like the shy tender fingers running against my skin. Lower, lower ... touching my thighs, crawling slowly to my crotch. And then very gently and slowly entering me. Damn, does it feel good! I do believe I'm much more on the recieving side, you know. I enjoy being eaten out and fingered by a girl. I enjoy when the girl sucks softly on the clit, licking tiny circles around it. Drives me absolutely crazy. I love it when the girl can tease me so. Though, I also love teasing girls. Especially the inexperiened and curious girls. I love seeing them arch and wriggle their bodies in surprised pleasure. I love bringing them time and time again to near cuming and then abruptly stop. I love the begging for more. Ah, yes, girls are fun. Suppose I better call this one back then eh? After all, she inspired this entry.
1. I'm new to this.
2. I'm human, so I have my moments of boredom.
3. If those moments are not filled with some kind of entertainment - I write.
4. Sex is fun.
5. Guys are usually more fun than girls.
6. I appreciate any comments, suggestions, shared stories.
7. All future written material is true.
Thank you. I'm going to try to update this as often as I can.
